upside down and inside out

February 20, 2007 at 3:19 am (career, self care, spiritual, Uncategorized)

Well it’s been an interesting week.  My whole life has been turned upside down again.  I thought the Universe was guiding me to be self-employed, but the rug has been pulled from under me in that area.  Looks like I need to go back to a full time day job.

I wonder if the lesson here is about non-attachment and letting go of my need for security?

I have a 2nd interview on Monday morning for a job I would really like to get, so please send good vibes that I get the job at the money I am asking.

 All I can really do is go with the flow and see what happens next.

I also need to move – my housemates are lovely, lovely girls but I don’t think they are good for my self-esteem.  I seem to feel worse about myself and be less motivated wrt exercise, diet etc since living with them.  I wish I could just settle in somewhere and be happy, but I just get so restless!

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eek!

January 16, 2007 at 1:56 pm (self care)

My pants are tight so I have decided to go back to keeping a food diary.  It’s gobsmacking to realise how many calories are in some of the tihngs I have been consuming routinely lately.

Especially when you consider that a glass of wine has about 120 calories.  Yesterday between 12pm and 12am, I probably had a bottle and a half of wine – at lunch, after work drinks, dinner and then at Karoke.  That’s like a LITRE of alcohol and more than 1000 calories.

Crikey.

I looked into joining the gym near my house but their weights area is paltry and I think it would be very crowded after work.

I need to get up and walk in the morning but it’s ccccccold!

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ommm…

January 13, 2007 at 9:18 am (self care, spiritual)

Most people I talk to think meditation is hard.  They think it’s about clearing the mind and having no thoughts.  Good luck with that!

Meditation is not about having ‘no thoughts’.  The nature of the mind is to think as the nature of a fish is to swim.

 

Meditation is not identifying with, or getting caught up with, the thoughts you have during a period of meditation.

 

You might have thoughts but the thoughts aren’t you.  They are just like leaves floating on the river of your conscious mind.  Why do you pay so much attention to the leaves?

 

There is no one right way to meditate.  The most important part of meditation isn’t how good you are at it (how would you measure that, anyway?), but how faithful you are to the practice.

 

I don’t do it because I want to, or because I enjoy it.  Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t.  I meditate because I have to.  It feeds my soul.  It frees my soul

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beginnings

January 1, 2007 at 2:28 pm (self care)

My first post in the New Year.  A new beginning. 

My New Year’s resolution is ‘tender loving care’ for my mind, body and spirit, consisting of:

Exercise daily.

Eat veggies at least once a day.

Have one ‘beauty’ night a week.

Date more.

Don’t buy any more black shoes!

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